34 weeks & nervous...

Had a rough afternoon a couple days ago. Was doing some reading on cesarean births and just reading through the details of it made me feel so anxious & concerned I actually started to cry. When Steve got home from work I was sitting on the couch staring at this book with tears streaming... of course he helped me through it, but I just really REALLY did not anticipate the likelihood of a cesarean. I've dreamed of having a baby & being a mother my whole life... surgery wasn't really part of that dream :( I know the health of baby is the most important thing... but the delivery IS still important to me. My greatest fear is probably that they won't allow me to hold our baby immediately after the birth because of some lame hospital protocal... I told Steve we had better bring our own kleenex along so my nose doesn't fall off... Still praying for baby to flip and the doctors to say I can deliver naturally! I have a Dr. appointment and an ultrasound tomorrow morning so we'll see how baby is presenting (please God...)

Words U Don't Want To Hear

I guess my ultrasound tech has been trying to get ahold of me since my last appointment. We were there August 10 & I asked her if we needed to schedule another appnt.... (since they made it sound like they wanted to keep an eye on things) & she said no. She even asked why my Dr. wanted me to have this appnt. in the first place... we were thoroughly confused because that appointment had been scheduled at our last one where they measured my cervix.

I explained this to one of her nurses today after being told that I actuall DO need to come in for another ultrasound... What??? Her reasoning was 'oh she just forgot that you had that uterine anomoly'.... she FORGOT?!?!? Wow.... Lord help me... :P Oh well, at least my 32 weeks pic is cute!

30 weeks prego pic! :D

Momma Pics!

More Photos :D

*Maternity Shoot*

Had my first maternity shoot July 24, Steve took some of me & amanda as well :D I'm at 28 weeks & manda is at 36! More Soon, YaY!!! :D

Name Crisis.... :)

Alright so I really wish I could say that names are 100% set in stone right now for boy or girl..... but we keep changing our minds! We've decided to just write down the names we love & see how we feel once we see our little love in person :D

I've had the name 'Sarah' on my heart a lot lately, but that could just be because God is calling me that = (Sarah was an older woman in the bible who was way past the age of having babies, but God helped her have one anyway!). It's really simple but very pretty - so I'm not opposed to that being the name for our girl if that's what we have.

I think our boy's name is pretty concrete: either James Gavin or James Xavier.... or James Alexander (hehe)... ok so we have the 1st name chosen, still thinking about the middle name :D I just think that names are SO absolutely important... I mean, Jesus is their true identity but even in bible times names were seen as a sort of 'inheritance' in themselves... I love researching name meanings... I want our baby to have a name that means something, but isn't embarrassing or awkward! Able to fit in, but still unique in a way :)

*sigh*  Lord let me know what you think, that'd make this super easy :D